302,417 notes ♦ reblog ♦ 5 years ago
Don’t be like me and fuck mad random dudes (not really random ones, but “boyfriends” I’d talk to for like a month & they’d end up cheating).
You are worth much more than that.
I am fucking disgusted with myself for one of the last guys I fucked. Fucking disgusting piece of shit they were. And a super small penis, too. They’d talk about how grand they were in bed, but couldn’t last long on top nor could they make me cum. Just thinking back to that experience because I was beyond bored and felt like adding some kind of excitement to my life. No love, just boredom. I didnt even like the person. I was just bored and wanted to curb my boredom.
Not even good fucking to be like “shit it was worth it,” because girl, none of it was worth it. In fact, if I could go back, I would have NEVER done it, but I did and that’s okay. I’ve moved on, found better and am finally HAPPY (both in bed and in life).
Listen ladies, you dont deserve a BOY who will cheat on you, then blame it on something else. Nah, that’s their fault. Dont ever let a BOY tell you that you broke their heart - honey, they broke their own heart. Who cheated? Who was the piece of shit? Who risked your life numerous times? Who did some fucked up shit to you? NOT YOU! The BOY did, not the man, the BOY. A man wont do harm to you, but a BOY sure as hell will.
You are worth so much more than you may think. Forgive yourself for what damage you have done to your body, and forgive yourself for all the mistakes you have made. Life goes on. Life gets better. It may get pretty fucking rocky, but it eventually gets better. I am not proud of my mistakes, but I am proud to say that I have learned from them.
I learned a lot this summer, especially after losing 2 months of my precious time with an ugly piece of shit, who cheated, almost killed me & risked my freedom - but that’s okay. I’ve got no hate towards my “exes out of boredom.” I wish them the best in fact, but it doesn’t change the fact that I still think they are pretty shitty people who should never talk to me again.
Love yourself, ladies. You’ve only got you. Be who you’d want your younger self to have as a role model. Accept your mistakes and move on. Things brighten up.
